Claire The Karma Whore gets all soppy
Well, another year is over, and I was going to have a good old nostalgic look back, and savour all those cherished moments.... Then I realised after thinking for about two minutes (which for me takes a fucking huge effort) what I really should do is say thank you to a few people, and maybe make a half arsed attempt at some new years resolutions.
It’s been a reasonably average year for the karma whore, up until around July/August when I re-joined the excellent Bad Psychics forum. After mooching around there for a while, I started to review episodes of Most Haunted for the site. Well I attempted to at least, it’s the first time I had attempted anything creative for at least seven years. Everything I had written/painted/drawn previously had gone to hell in a wheelie bin thanks to a cunt of an ex-boyfriend. So to say I was feeling a bit out of my depth is an understatement.
Anyways, to cut a very long and fucking boring story short, it’s Bad Psychics that ultimately led me here, and eventually after a few "episodes" with Liam, I became a staff member. So really, my first big thank you is to Liam. I’d like to thank him for believing that I can do this, holding my hand for the first month, letting me do what I want when I want, and most importantly, for being the best mate a girl can have. I honestly don’t know what my life would be like without you in it, and I hope your around for a very long time, thank you x. (I’m speechless… - Liam)
It's him again
So, now feeling slightly embarrassed at that outpouring of emotion, I guess the other people I should thank are my close friends, and some of my (rather large) family. This year also saw the karma whore experience what can only be described as "a mental meltdown" most people call it depression. I like to invent names for it, like "duvet hogging" "drink ‘til you die" and "fuzzy head syndrome". Anyhows, the aforementioned meltdown seems to be coming to an end (I hope) and I have to say, it’s been a fucking riot! Having the feeling of not giving a toss about fucking anything is actually quite liberating but on the flip side, when you realise how many people worry about you, love you and generally want to take care of you, its pretty fucking humbling.
So to those people I say the biggest thank you of all, to Lou and Dean, for the talks, Nana for the baked goods, my dear friend Pie, for the support, straight talking and the ability to "hold the fort". To Chris, GT and Trace, for being the best girls in the world, my mother for trying to understand me, when I know I worry her to death. Shell for being in the background, the best invisible support in the world!! My sisters for letting me get on with it, my angels for making me smile (especially Lolly). My son for keeping me straight, I’d have gone over the edge without him, and last but no means least, Anita, for being the best friend a girl could have, and for doing what she’s done, and understanding me totally, I love you all madly.
Told you all this was going to be soppy didn’t I? So resolutions? To make myself happy, that’s always a good place to start, write to my hearts content, in the hope that someone somewhere reads it, and maybe even understands it!! To my angels I say this, I will try and make all your birthday parties this year, I only managed one out of four last year, I am a terrible aunty, and I promise this year you can spread jam on the furniture, trash my house and even stick your fingers in the margarine when you decide you want to play IN the damn fridge.
And to every one of you out there, live each day like it’s your last, love loads, smile loads, and drink ‘til you cannot drink anymore! I know I’m going to, ‘til next time kids...........